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Reality in reverse
Turn the stars again
See us all transcend
We can’t pretend that we belong
We can’t pretend that this is ours
Relax, you’re already there
Phasing to a starry-eyed stare
‘Cause we can’t pretend that it’s not running out
We aren’t convinced that time is ours
Cracking at the base
Your dial to turn and break
Beds and graves to make
Setting an electric phantom free
Surroundings alter as you see
Relax, you’re already there
(Breathe a newer air)
Phasing to a starry-eyed stare
‘Cause we can’t pretend that it’s not over now
We aren’t convinced we’re still alive
We can’t pretend that we own this thing we waste
We can’t believe this is all there is to see
Stop me; I don’t want what I thought
You’re going to feed the earth
You’re going to bleed for her
Sculpt something to leave behind
Pretend this was your life
Hey, I think we made a mistake to never question anything (at all)
I’m so sorry that we never...
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2. |
Soda Teeth
03:28
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Watch as it’s wasting all away
What corrosions come about today
Living in a fragile dream
A callous finally starts to bleed
Like grinding away at teeth
Speaking words you’d never mean
Tell another lie
Creating only to let die
Decaying from inside
We are absent all the time
Gardens grown then left dried; Every part of me has slowly died
Watch as they slowly walk away
Get a fix on a disconnection plague
Cold in the sun
Shattered with all said and done
We can’t see the stars;
They all crash into us
Tell another lie
Your murder weapon is your goodbye
Decaying from inside
We create just to let die
Withered with seasons gone; Winter comes and kills us all
Corrode cruelly
Killing kindly
Not like it was
Not what you thought
Watch how we turn our eyes again
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3. |
Resident
04:14
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Crocodile tears
A fragile mask on the insincere
I let you in
Romantic parasite
Falling apart just to fit your puzzle
Rueing every breath I take
The next time you see me, I won’t be the same
Altered state; feeding only on shards of forgotten sanity
Tired of losing to self-hatred
Can you smile at the blood you’ve tasted?
Toil your way to soil
Soil yourself to spoil
Rarely are we ever present; We either fill a space, or become a space to be filled - no sentience.
Never takes too long to get used to consistent pain; After awhile, I’m convinced that I deserve it - duly vacant.
Every day without you feels like a mistake; All the color is slowly swept away.
Life was a nightmare; I just wanted to wake up.
I haven’t really taken care;
I haven’t really seen a need.
All I feel is anger
All I have is failure
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4. |
Sorry Now
04:04
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Dear everyone, I confess
By now you know, I’ve not been my best
Somehow life ain’t all we’d dreamed it to be
Am I sorry now? You bet
I’m so sorry now, you know
I used to be so fine
But now those days are far behind
Here I sit with a razor to my neck
In a car I want to wreck
We are only waiting on death
Feel a sting with every heavy breath
I detest how I look and how I am
I don’t know how to change it
I don’t know if I can
Every fire fades in time
I am sorry now
God, I’m sorry now
I used to be so fine
But now it’s somewhere lost in time
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5. |
Tuesday Gigs
05:20
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[inarticulate Tuesday Gigs noises]
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6. |
Delicates
04:32
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Gettin’ colder on the east coast
You’re cleaning out your ghosts
Take whatever comes your way
No matter of benefit or decay
Traumas repeating, hold you like a ransom
Foster the broken, like an abandoned mansion
Calloused but tender, awful pretender
Drawing awful things on flesh; Razors to remember
Stuck in a moment; From loving to lament; We learn to hate ourselves before we learn to love at all
Can’t you feel it slowly slipping out of your hands? Such a delicate place to hold the weight of everything you thought you understood; You’d let it go, if only you could
Trust is a fable; Mandela Effect
Disappointment is all that you ever expect
Made a home on broken bones; Rubble like sticks and stones
Anxiety leaves you all alone
And I can’t help but think about everything I could have said and done wrong
Will I ever know that feeling or something close, or will I forever sing this sad song alone?
And I can’t help but scream and shout, ‘cause everything just keeps falling down
Will I ever know how or why I’m here, or will I finally disappear?
Can’t you feel it slowly slipping out of your hands? Such a delicate place to hold the weight of everything you thought you understood; You’d let it go, if only you could
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7. |
Super Zero
04:33
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I can’t believe the news today
Why does it always end up this way?
Watch out, I’m feeling confident
Done it once, can do it again
Watch out, I didn’t take my meds
Look how I fly away in my head
Someone’s gotta do something somewhere, sometime
Trying to save the world, when I can’t save myself
Trying to change the world, when I can’t change myself
(Young Potatoe)
Young Potatoe here, and I’m talking to YOU! Yes, YOU!
You can do this! Put down that enormous bag of potato chips, and dump out that 3 liter bottle of soda pop! Stand up tall, take a big breath, slap your ass! How do you feel? Today is the day! YOU can CHANGE the WORLD!
I know I’m nothing what I used to be, but in my head I’ve got invincibility
Bit off more than I can chew and I don’t like the taste
Trying to save the world, when I can’t save myself
Trying to change the world, when I can’t change myself
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8. |
Neurodegeneration
04:18
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If only you knew where these eyes went to; Submerged into a place so cruel
A thousand eyes, so criticized, but every mouth somehow seems to have your voice
And they don’t match your words
But you’re still feeling worse
Why can’t I change a thing?
Why can’t I walk the same?
Craters deep and damaging
Will death kiss me to sleep?
Six inches from six feet; six miles out
Maybe time can forgive; I cannot
Are you waking where you want to be? A fever dream of cynical relief
Queen of all earth’s misery;
Why won’t you cut the cord for me?
Reluctantly receptive;
Does that smile fool the mirror?
It’s only you
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9. |
Light Obstruction
05:48
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Madam Dagger;
You’re still right there
Shade on the light
Suffocating
I can see you;
Haunting my mind
Cuts and bruises
All over, all over, decaying me
Silhouette of yesterthought; Deformed and distorted, recited in flesh and blood. A past repeating at rapid fire.
Shut my eyes and I’ll go back. This life feels imprisoning; Trapped with your scent, cursing me.
And you were the only way out; They said stay away, but I took it - I took your hand.
Drowning above water
(Will Fisher)
Stay with us now; You’ve already jumped that ledge.
Like a rose left at a tombstone; There’s beauty in expiration
Open up
You belong to fate
Allow this
Give in, give up, give out
This world has nothing to offer but experience; Variations of misery, a prolonged venture to your grave
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10. |
Funegrrl
05:18
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There’s clouds looming over
She’s got your eyes
And you already know just what the day is looking like
There’s some voices in your head
Used to sound like love
And they’re tearing you down
Nothing you ain’t done yourself
Yeah the rabbit hole goes deeper than you ever knew
But you’re already digging, might as well follow through
You’ve waited so long just to learn your place
You’ve made your own hell, hope it’s warm enough
Raising your anxiety
Pretending what you don’t believe
You say it’s not what you mean
Fixed on a false reality
All in all it’s all you are
Sleeping with your skeletons
Fucking like a deity
Jester of the week
Drooling over fool’s gold
Cuddled tightly in an early grave
Love, so bitter and depraved
All in all it’s all you are
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11. |
Pseudiabolical
02:59
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What good is short-term?
Let’s leave a scar
What good is a moment?
Let’s make a mark
I won’t eat, I won’t sleep, I won’t breathe, I won’t just be; I won’t live, I won’t die, let a curse destroy my mind
This is real!
I think I can handle it all
Pretend, pretend, pretend, and end
I think I know it all
Defend, defend, defend my bittersweet end
I won’t eat, I won’t sleep, I won’t breathe, I won’t just be; I won’t live, I won’t die, let a curse destroy my mind
This is real mother fucker!
Something waits for us all; A captivating obsession to plague and drive. Cutting deep but only scratching the surface; Vultures killing one another to feed on the same decaying corpse. A fool’s gold, if you will; I guess my eyes have finally started to see the rust beneath the shine.
I wish I could say it wasn’t too late, but I’ve come this far, I can’t give up now, I may gain nothing, but at least neither will you, and at least I’ll gain that before you ever do!
This is real!
This is my extravagant meltdown!
This is mine and never yours!
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12. |
Saltwater Cemetery
04:24
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Lost all but the day
No more words to say
Moving on, decayed
Peace of mind, astray
Dancing off the edge, do we look happy to be dead?
Barely make the rent of living in my own head
Wake up every day and something new is working less
Barely any flesh left underneath what I dress
Can you give me a reason to stay afloat?
Mind’s lost at sea drowning and void of hope
Does the water make you feel clean?
We’re sentient, rusted machines
Lost in space, corroded by the sea
There’s death in admiration
A quiet place to fade
No more thoughts to think
Estrangement on display
Piece of mind to waste
Self-harm battle scars; I guess I earned my stripes, huh?
Must be why “secrets” and “regrets” rhyme, huh?
Living shitty - river city, negative a mili, feeding off my pity - even sunny days are never pretty
Fuck a low-life, I’m no-life, waitin’ on no life, gettin’ lusty on the suicide
I got the vision but I still won’t see it
On some “if my pulse quit, so be it” shit
‘Cause sometimes you feel grateful for the pain; Sometimes you just smile at the memory it makes;
Sometimes you realize the sensation’s all the same;
‘Cause if it weren’t for at least that, you wouldn’t feel a fuckin’ thing
You mother fuckers wasting life competing a coward’s competition with toxic narcissism feedin’ off that repetition; The mission gets lost in the blurred vision, altering condition, now what you spitting is some bullshit with no comprehension
Does the water make you feel clean?
We’re sentient, rusted machines
Lost in space, corroded by the sea
There’s death in admiration
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13. |
Chutiyapa
05:11
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I can’t live, I just give
The reconciliation is the grave
Living to pay; Paying to live
I can’t see purpose anymore
I’m only someone when I’m something to use
(Gia)
Castrate your “God”
This is a comfy prison
That we don’t even know we’re in
This is an air-conditioned nightmare
We’re suntanning on the shores of hell
Just need one more “one time”
Where’s the excitement? Where’s the change? Where’s the survivors? Where are the sharks?
Take the hit, swallow whole
Are you feeling like something now?
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14. |
Formerly You
03:44
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Saw my memories burning down, without a word to say
Decorated in disconnection, revolving in a roulette mind
Where we go and where we’ve been, all dissolving in the end
Saw you pour into the ocean, each grain like tears from the face
Decorated in desolation; Was this a happy place?
Where you go, and where you’ve been, all just hurts you in the end
Say we know when we don’t;
I’ll be okay all alone
Don’t cry now, I wanted this
Don’t cry now, you wanted this
I guess we’re done
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Sundrest
09:00
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So is this where it ends?
Miles from amends
Don’t let the light die with one lonely night
This one is for you
Sing like you knew
Death in daily life
Head like a cloudy sky
Might be heaven, could be hell
Most days no one can tell
Light is cutting through
The sun rises and sets on you
You’ll prosper in all you do
Life will be worth seeing through
Swallowed whole by thoughts
A rollercoaster that never stops
Is there reason to breathe?
We’ll just have to wait and see
Something’s always waiting for you
Every eye will shut tight one day
Something’s going to get you through
Don’t let something get you too
I could lock myself in here
Pretend it’s over and just disappear
But I don’t want to be a tortured soul, writing songs about something I’ll never know
Guilty of empty hope;
Still holding on, I suppose
So how are things where you are?
[All is without meaning or purpose; Not homeless, just hopeless...]
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Asylum 213 Richmond, Virginia
Asylum 213 is an experimental rock quartet originally founded as a solo project by Dylan Lawson in the summer of
2010.
Feel free to drop a line any time at themusicofasylum213@gmail.com for bookings, thoughts, compliments, insults, and more! Much love!
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